Living in joy rather than sadness

Have you ever noticed that as time goes by, things that at one time were totally all-encompassing seem to take a back seat in your life?

I was sitting here at the computer wondering if anything would come to mind to write today. Suddenly I realized today was July 1st. It was 4 years ago today that we suffered our first miscarriage.

On the first anniversary of that sad day, Greg and I definitely mourned. We knew the day was coming. Each year, the anniversary seems less and less urgent. Whereas on the first anniversary, we dreaded that day for weeks, now it didn't even cross our minds until 8:30 p.m.!

Does it mean that we don't still think about it at times? Absolutely not. We will never forget. But whenever one is faced with tragedy in their lives, they have to learn to live with that tragedy. They have to learn to go on.

Thank God we did.

I am certainly not glad we had our miscarriages. But I also would not change a thing. We are all products of our life experiences. We wouldn't be who we are today it weren't for the things we've been through in our pasts. How could I possibly feel any differently? Were it not for our miscarriages, we would not have Michael and Matthew.

Rather than living my life feeling sad about what I have lost, I will live my life feeling joy about what I have.